urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth j_elisabeth j_elisabeth 2008-12-26T00:17:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:32265 2008-12-26T00:17:05Z 2008-12-26T00:17:05Z I'm falling apart. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:32125 2008-12-23T18:50:18Z 2008-12-23T18:50:18Z "All the streetlights, glowing, happen to be just like moments, passing, in front of me. So I hopped in the cab and, I paid my fare, see I know my destination, but I'm just not there." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:31898 2008-12-15T20:53:13Z 2008-12-15T20:53:13Z OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGODIFINALLYGOTMYCOMPUTERBACKIMSOEXCITEDOHMYGOD. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:31451 2008-11-03T19:31:13Z 2008-11-03T19:31:13Z <img src="http://data.tumblr.com/dvaHAklDufcmrfki8VC6SLPjo1_500.png"><br /><br />I'm, oddly enough, really excited for the election tommorow and to see what happens? Hoping for the best. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:31048 2008-11-03T06:28:01Z 2008-11-03T06:28:01Z "And you know I wouldn't say "I hate you", if it wasn't true." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:30655 2008-10-29T02:17:55Z 2008-11-03T03:50:25Z <img src="http://data.tumblr.com/AZN7wsuV4fml62bgxlCKGhuIo1_500.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:30114 2008-10-29T01:45:23Z 2008-11-03T03:49:36Z Pointless: The guy next to me keeps making noises when he swallows and it's making me cringe. I don't like the fact that I'm scared to drive my own car. My mood ring is turning my thumb green but I'm still going to wear it, it reminds me of you. It's so cold out already? I think my seasons or off because winter feels like summer and summer feels like winter, in respects of being productive and responsible. I don't know. I like going to work just because I read magazines for free. Shit, he just got up to make another glass. My horoscope just messed everything up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:29768 2008-10-28T03:26:17Z 2008-10-28T03:26:17Z <img src="http://i299.photobucket.com/albums/mm319/freaknstein89/TheStrangers.jpg"><br /><br />I can't sleep at night anymore. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:29558 2008-10-27T00:50:50Z 2008-10-28T03:27:47Z <img src="http://mail.google.com/mail/?attid=0.1&amp;disp=emb&amp;view=att&amp;th=11d20cb1ab72d124"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:28856 2008-10-23T20:34:39Z 2008-10-23T20:34:39Z <img src="http://i160.photobucket.com/albums/t174/j_elisabeth/FALL%2008/8XzUlvJKGf5uugyaqZvsI2Zeo1_500.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:27990 2008-10-21T18:54:45Z 2008-10-23T20:18:20Z <img src="http://media.tumblr.com/8XzUlvJKGf94cntwKv6w62gro1_500.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:27821 2008-10-21T18:40:11Z 2008-10-23T20:17:59Z "...am I talking too much?, are they talking enough?, am I interested? I'm not really interested. Should I play like I'm interested but I'm not that interested, but I think he might be interested, but do I want to be interested but now he's not interested? So all of the sudden I'm getting, I'm starting to get interested ... and when am I supposed to kiss him? Do I have to wait for the door because then it's awkward, it's like, well, goodnight. Do you do like that ass-out hug? Where you like, you hug each other like this and your ass sticks out cause you're trying not to get too close or do you just go right in and kiss them on the lips or don't kiss them at all? It's very difficult trying to read the situation. And all the while you're just really wondering..."<br /><br />I have this argument with myself everyday. I really don't understand or know what I'm doing or even what I'm not doing? We have really almost nothing in common and I never thought I would see myself actually being attracted to him, but, I am? Or am I? I do know that it's easy to to put our differences aside and put what everyone else has to say aside because in the smallest ways he makes me smile. And that is what I want right? Just someone that makes me smile? But then again, I guess not? Or maybe? It's all to confusing and with everything that you said last night I feel like I should just stop because really, I didn't even want to do this in the first place? I don't know but I wish I did, I really, really do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:27472 2008-10-21T18:25:14Z 2008-10-23T20:17:35Z As soon as fall begins, I always start to feel like I'm falling behind? I turned in my psyc paper late, I mean, only by a couple of hours, but I've had all semester? I'm failing biology but I'm going to start working really hard to bring that up to at least a C? I haven't been to my math class in two weeks? I'm always tired or achey and I know what I'm doing to myself but really, I just can't stop. I just realized how flighty I must sound with a question mark after every sentence but that's really how it is. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:27177 2008-10-07T02:46:48Z 2008-10-07T02:47:44Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />Are your ears gauged?<br />I think I vaccumed up my favorite earring today?<br /><br />What shirt are you wearing?<br />Long sleeve tye-dye, I'm almost asleep.<br /><br />Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a L?<br />LOSER, all of them.<br /><br />Would you get married if you could right now?<br />I would rather walk in front of a bus.<br /><br />Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?<br />Reid. <br /><br />Is the last person you kissed mad at you?<br />No texts all day?<br /><br />What are you looking forward to most?<br />I have off tommorow and I'm buying a soccer ball, wow Jen, your exciting.<br /><br />Do you think you are an argumentative person?<br />I just have an attitude problem 24/7.<br /><br />What jewelry do you wear all the time?<br />I always try to put my earrings in? I need moreeeeee.<br /><br />How did you feel when you woke up today?<br />Comfy and warm :)<br /><br />What is in your pocket?<br />Chapstick, always.<br /><br />When is your birthday?<br />APRIL! <br /><br />How’s your heart lately?<br />Bitter old Bitsy but not all of the time?<br /><br />Are you a forgiving person?<br />Too forgiving.<br /><br /><br />When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?<br />I set almost three different alarms, almost like the snooze button, but better.<br /><br />Have you ever slow danced without any music?<br />Hold me close.<br /><br />Do you think Shia Labouef is cute?<br />OH MY GOD, mmm.<br /><br />What would your parents have named you if you were born the opposite sex?<br />Ryan Timothy.<br /><br />Do you like humans?<br />.01%<br /><br />How long does it take you in the shower?<br />I usually just lose myself which means I lose the time too.<br /><br />What band have you been listening to a lot recently?<br />Way too much Ne-Yo?<br /><br />How ticklish are you?<br />;)<br /><br />If you could be anwhere in the world right now, where would it be?<br />I wish I would've went away to college?<br /><br />Do you like your middle name?<br />J. Elisabeth.<br /><br />Do you have freckles?<br />Everywhere.<br /><br />Do you look up lyrics to songs to learn them?<br />Only if I really can't figure it out.<br /><br />Did you have an imaginary friend when you were younger?<br />I had real ones?<br /><br />Have you ever given someone your phone number?<br />I'd rather just get yours, it's not you, it's me.<br /><br />Do you know anyone who is racist?<br />Go to hell?<br /><br />Can you raise one eyebrow?:<br />I bought the Rock's book from Goodwill.<br /><br />Are you in a good mood?<br />My eyes are so heavy.<br /><br />The last person you argued with?<br />Just arguing with myself all the time, I can't figure this out.<br /><br />Do you prefer warm or cold weather?<br />This is perfect.<br /><br />Is any part of your body sore?<br />My head is so strained.<br /><br />What do you wear more jeans, sweatpants, or slacks?<br />I never leave the house without jeans on, it's disgusting not too.<br /><br />Brothers/sisters?<br />It feels like he's not real?<br /><br />Your favorite fruit?<br />Strawberries, bitter/sweet.<br /><br />Do you get offended easily?<br />In a silent way.<br /><br />How many different beverages have you had today?<br />Water, milk, water, water.<br /><br />What do you wish for?<br />I was happy in the summer?<br /><br />What did you do this weekend?<br />Thirsty Thursday, woah, trippin', no sleep?, work, sleep!, sleep!, sleep!, Papermoon, Sunday is for football, goodbye blunt, Dexter/Entourage/Jim.<br /><br />Have you ever kissed anyone over 17?<br />Brittany has more interesting ages than I do.<br /><br />What's something that bothers you about guys?<br />It's weird how happy he makes me?<br /><br />Who was that last person you had a phone call longer than 7 minutes?<br />I talked to Melissa for over an hour today!<br /><br />Do you currently like anyone?<br />Cloud Nine.<br /><br />How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?<br />I wanted to call your bullshit today but horoscope told me to holdback.<br /><br />What are you listening to?<br />T.I.<br /><br />Would you ever dye you hair blonde?<br />Not a blonde baby.<br /><br />Is something bothering you?<br />It's always too much or not enough?<br /><br />If you could change your eye color, what would it be?<br />Some deep blue so it would match my outfits all the time.<br /><br />Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?<br />I just get all rude and think "their brown"?<br /><br />Do you believe that you can change for someone?<br />You can, I'm not, seeya.<br /><br />What woke you up this morning?<br />I can never sleep in your bed but I love being there anyways.<br /><br />Who'd you wake up to this morning?<br />J.<br /><br />Would you go back in time to change something?<br />Just one, but really, I'm not even sure that I would anymore.<br /><br />Will you be in a relationship in four months?<br />Stay warm over winter.<br /><br />Is it hard leaving people behind?<br />That is all my life has been lately?<br /><br />At the moment are you more warm or cold?<br />I shouldn't eat icecream before bed anyways.<br /><br />What was the last thing you spent your money on?<br />Water at work. I'm getting a soccer ball tommorow. 1.) I can't believe I don't own one? 2.) I want to play so bad.<br /><br />Who do you trust the most in your life?<br />I'm not admitting that.<br /><br />Is there one song that reminds you of the whole summer?<br />Alkaline Trio and that absolutely kills me.<br /><br />What are you doing right now?<br />Avoiding being home alone, again.<br /><br />Have you ever kissed someone who's name started with a J?<br />I like it too much.<br /><br />Do you prefer warm or cold weather?<br />This is perfect.<br /><br />Can you handle the truth?<br />Yeah and I don't feel the need to obnoxiously flaunt that off either.<br /><br />How's your life lately?<br />I'll get out of this bitter funk soon hopefully?<br /><br />Do you drive with your windows up or down?<br />Usually down, it it's cold, turn the heat up.<br /><br />When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong?<br />I ended up with $13 extra in my register, woops.<br /><br />Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?<br />Fuck, that.<br /><br />If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?<br />Summer, I was so happy?<br /><br />Do you hate being alone?<br />I'm always home alone, it's called alone for a reason.<br /><br />Do you hate the last guy/girl you had a fling with?<br />I'm not doing this, but I am, but I'm not, ew.<br /><br />Have you ever been out past curfew?<br />I've never had a curfew.<br /><br />Is there someone that knows everything or mostly everything about you?<br />You know too much.<br /><br />Are you enemies with a former friend?<br />Oh god I'm so Hills I love frenemies! GET OVER YOURSELF.<br /><br />How did you and your number 1 become friends?<br />I don't do myspace and I definitely don't rate my friends.<br /><br />Where were you last night?<br />J's.<br /><br />Do you currently have a hickey?<br />White trash, no.<br /><br />Do you drink tea?<br />Glamour magazine said drinking three glasses of green tea increases your metabolism, so, I do now.<br /><br />What's a bad habit you have?<br />I haven't been nosey lately but as soon as I start snooping it hurts more than it's fun.<br /><br />Last time you consumed alcohol?<br />I called out of work to watch the football game and drink beer? I'm such a bro?<br /><br />What is one thing you would love to happen today?<br />Just fucking text me already, jesus.<br /><br />What side of the bed do you sleep on?<br />More on the right side, it works out.<br /><br />When will you next be in school?<br />815, kill me.<br /><br />Last non-alcoholic beverage consumed?<br />Water, always.<br /><br />What song are you listening to right now?<br />I can't stop listening to Ne-Yo?<br /><br />Do you have any plans exactly after school tomorrow?<br />I want Nate to play soccer with me, that's all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:26442 2008-09-24T17:47:53Z 2008-09-29T17:52:22Z "I could feel a hot one taking me down. For a moment, I could feel the force. Fainted to the point of tears and you were holding on to make a point. What's the point? I'm but a clean man, stable and alone man, make it so I won't have to try. The faces always stay the same, so I face the fact that I'm just fine, I said that I'm just fine. I remember, head down, after you had found out manna is a hell of a drug. And I need a little more, I think, because enough is never quite enough. What's enough?" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:26311 2008-09-22T17:01:02Z 2008-09-29T17:52:39Z "It's difficult to hold divergent positions today, yet your head tells you one thing while your heart says something else. You care deeply for those you love, yet you cannot deny your needs, even if they are in conflict with others. If you do hide what's important to you, it might help you avoid an unpleasant scene now, but it won't make anyone happy in the long run. Being honest isn't always easy, yet it's still the best policy." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:25831 2008-09-21T21:58:00Z 2008-09-22T16:51:38Z 1. I'm so fucking stupid.<br />2. I'll update this when I have time, so, never. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:25099 2008-09-18T00:58:46Z 2008-09-22T16:51:58Z People are such bullshit 24/7. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:24596 2008-09-09T15:06:04Z 2008-09-11T01:21:54Z <img src="http://i160.photobucket.com/albums/t174/j_elisabeth/FALL%2008/photo.jpg?t=1220972416" height="425" width="565"><br /><br />They make everything so much easier? I love these boys, no questions. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:24299 2008-09-07T17:43:59Z 2008-09-07T17:43:59Z "As life gets longer, awful feels softer, and well, it feels pretty soft to me. And if it takes shit to make bliss then I feel pretty blissfully." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:23626 2008-09-05T18:14:30Z 2008-09-05T18:20:14Z People are so weak? The worst part is that I'm watching this all happen, everyone around me, and the only thing I can say is "they do it to themselves". It's hard, it's pathetic, it's everything that you don't want to watch/see/feel. When did everyone lose themselves? And for what? A feeling, a moment, a person, a drink, a drug, a good time? <br /><br />I can honestly say that before now I don't think I was ever living for myself. Always for something/someone else. I just realized that today, as I was watching everything unfold around me. I am me, finally. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:23288 2008-08-31T23:22:21Z 2008-09-05T17:44:04Z <img src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_a7jkcMVp5Vg/SLnNs7AutLI/AAAAAAAAFz4/u7qiH6D4nwI/s400/avec.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:22040 2008-08-23T07:11:21Z 2008-08-23T07:11:21Z My life is one big question mark? "I don't know", that's all I hear myself saying, "do I ever know?" I've been pushing myself and can feel myself being pushed around by everyone else. I'm not sure, and there I go again, great. Numb? It almost feels like I have put my body on auto-pilot and have completely lost myself. Alone, lost, but I'm never alone and I have no reason to feel lost? I feel myself getting frustrated, irritated, and just mean. I keep feeling the tears run down my cheeks and when I try to figure out which part of me is crying, or maybe just why altogether, all I can find is that question mark, hanging right above my head. I'm scared, I'll admit it now? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:22011 2008-08-23T03:02:06Z 2008-08-23T03:02:06Z I don't have time for livejournal? I never thought I would ever say that? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:j_elisabeth:21742 2008-08-21T16:41:26Z 2008-08-21T16:41:26Z A staph infection in my eye, water being spilled all over my phone, spending $60 on weed in three days, realizing I'll be in class at 930 on Monday morning, "talking to walls" because my friends obviously don't listen. I dn't want the best summer of my life to end like this?